Get An Indomitable Spirit !
I have had what most people would call a disastrous life, but I BEG TO DIFFER. In my opinion, I have had a life that has helped to shape, cement and mould me into what the maker intended my life to be.After having suffered numerous levels of abuse some from the people who were meant to protect me, (parents in absentia), others from strangers and acquaintances, I embarked on the journey of getting my book Bamboo & Fern published. Initially I toyed with the idea of publishing as to be truthful, the book was just something in a diary format that I kept to heal my wounds. A cathartic object in one sense.
As the years went on and different tragedies and disastrous struck, the need to tell my story was ever more pressing. This gave me an urge to focus more on my diary entries and solidify what I was putting down on paper.
On reflection, there are certain parts of my life that have left me feeling very angry e.g.: What my step-mother did to me by allowing men to abuse me and robbed me of some level of innocence, coupled with my neighbours in the UK who were antisocial and racist in their behaviour and attitude, by trying to make my life uncomfortable etc.
I could list many other situations that most people would simply give up on, but I “tuffed” it out as we say back home in Jamaica.
How many people could stand being shouted at in the presence of others by their managers? Yet, although I saw it as humiliating and degrading, I strongly believed that the perpetrators who do this, did so with a clear agenda to destroy one’s confidence and esteem to exalt themselves and hide their own insecurities.
We don’t live in a perfect world, nonetheless I will never understand why one human being will set out to harm another human being physically, emotionally, psychologically, financially, sexually and so forth. As the world is not perfect, these indignities occur in many environments and within a wide range of capacities. Many communities choose to hide from them, bury them under the carpet or simply dismiss them. Whatever choices are made in these testing times, we can chose to sink or swim when faced with these adversities, yet I chose to stand! I cannot lie and say it has been an easy journey, but as Les Brown says:
If life knocks you down, try and land on your back. Because if you can look up, you can get up. And if you get up, you can stand up. And if you stand up, you can fight for your dream once again.
Through all this I have come out bruised but not broken with an Indomitable Spirit. The lessons I have learnt along the way are numerous and I will leave a few with you namely:
- Know what you from your life.
- Don’t ever get bugged down with the past.
- Push, hold and stand again, after a fall, it’s the man who is able to stand after a fall who lives to run the race.
- Life will always have trials but it’s how you handle them that determines the Victor in you.
- “Sometimes, just swimming into the waves is all you can do, letting the tide carry you to the destined place.” Ava Brown (August 14)
All in all, I will encourage each person I come into contact with , to understand that it’s not the failing or failing that matters , it’s what you chose to do when you fall or fail that counts.